Stanford rapist Brock Turner

29 Resiliant Quotes From The Survivor Of Brock Turner’s Rape That Are The Absolute Pinnacle Grace

Select quotes from a statement given by the survivor of Stanford swimmer Brock Turner's assault at his trial. 
Daniel Hayes
June 8, 2016
“Someone who cannot take full accountability for his actions does not deserve a mitigating sentence.”
— Anonymous, Here's The Powerful Letter The Stanford Victim Read To Her Attacker
Tagged: Stanford Victim, Dan Turner
“Campus drinking culture. That’s what we’re speaking out against? You think that’s what I’ve spent the past year fighting for? Not awareness about campus sexual assault, or rape, or learning to recognize consent. Campus drinking culture. Down with Jack Daniels. Down with Skyy Vodka. If you want talk to people about drinking go to an AA meeting. You realize, having a drinking problem is different than drinking and then forcefully trying to have sex with someone? Show men how to respect women, not how to drink less.”
— Anonymous, Here's The Powerful Letter The Stanford Victim Read To Her Attacker
Tagged: Stanford Victim, Dan Turner
“When I was finally allowed to use the restroom, I pulled down the hospital pants they had given me, went to pull down my underwear, and felt nothing. I still remember the feeling of my hands touching my skin and grabbing nothing. I looked down and there was nothing. The thin piece of fabric, the only thing between my vagina and anything else, was missing and everything inside me was silenced.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Sexual Assault, Brock Turner, Stanford Victim
“The three of us worked to comb the pine needles out of my hair, six hands to fill one paper bag. To calm me down, they said it’s just the flora and fauna, flora and fauna. I had multiple swabs inserted into my vagina and anus, needles for shots, pills, had a nikon pointed right into my spread legs. I had long, pointed beaks inside me and had my vagina smeared with cold, blue paint to check for abrasions.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Sexual Assault, Stanford Victim, Brock Turner
“On that morning, all that I was told was that I had been found behind a dumpster, potentially penetrated by a stranger, and that I should get retested for HIV because results don’t always show up immediately. But for now, I should go home and get back to my normal life. Imagine stepping back into the world with only that information.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Sexual Assault, Brock Turner, Stanford Victim
“My boyfriend did not know what happened, but called that day and said, ‘I was really worried about you last night, you scared me, did you make it home okay?’ I was horrified. That’s when I learned I had called him that night in my blackout, left an incomprehensible voicemail, that we had also spoken on the phone, but I was slurring so heavily he was scared for me, that he repeatedly told me to go find my sister. Again, he asked me, ‘What happened last night? Did you make it home okay?’ I said yes, and hung up to cry.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Sexual Assault, Brock Turner, Stanford Victim
“One day, I was at work, scrolling through the news on my phone, and came across an article. In it, I read and learned for the first time about how I was found unconscious, with my hair disheveled, long necklace wrapped around my neck, bra pulled out of my dress, dress pulled off over my shoulders and pulled up above my waist, that I was butt naked all the way down to my boots, legs spread apart, and had been penetrated by a foreign object by someone I did not recognize. This was how I learned what happened to me, sitting at my desk reading the news at work.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Sexual Assault, Stanford Victim, Brock Turner
“At the bottom of the article, after I learned about the graphic details of my own sexual assault, the article listed his swimming times. She was found breathing, unresponsive with her underwear six inches away from her bare stomach curled in fetal position. By the way, he’s really good at swimming. Throw in my mile time if that’s what we’re doing. I’m good at cooking, put that in there, I think the end is where you list your extra-curriculars to cancel out all the sickening things that’ve happened.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Stanford Victim, Brock Turner, Sexual Assault
“He admitted to kissing other girls at that party, one of whom was my own sister who pushed him away. He admitted to wanting to hook up with someone. I was the wounded antelope of the herd, completely alone and vulnerable, physically unable to fend for myself, and he chose me. Sometimes I think, if I hadn’t gone, then this never would’ve happened. But then I realized, it would have happened, just to somebody else.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Stanford Victim, Sexual Assault, Brock Turner
“The night after it happened, he said he thought I liked it because I rubbed his back. A back rub.

Never mentioned me voicing consent, never mentioned us speaking, a back rub.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Sexual Assault, Brock Turner, Stanford Victim
“I was not only told that I was assaulted, I was told that because I couldn’t remember, I technically could not prove it was unwanted. And that distorted me, damaged me, almost broke me. It is the saddest type of confusion to be told I was assaulted and nearly raped, blatantly out in the open, but we don’t know if it counts as assault yet. I had to fight for an entire year to make it clear that there was something wrong with this situation.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Brock Turner, Sexual Assault, Stanford Victim
“Instead of his attorney saying, Did you notice any abrasions? He said, You didn’t notice any abrasions, right? This was a game of strategy, as if I could be tricked out of my own worth. The sexual assault had been so clear, but instead, here I was at the trial, answering question like:

How old are you? How much do you weigh? What did you eat that day? Well what did you have for dinner? Who made dinner? Did you drink with dinner? No, not even water? When did you drink? How much did you drink? What container did you drink out of? Who gave you the drink?”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Brock Turner, Sexual Assault, Stanford Victim
“How much do you usually drink? Who dropped you off at this party? At what time? But where exactly? What were you wearing? Why were you going to this party? What’ d you do when you got there? Are you sure you did that? But what time did you do that? What does this text mean?

Who were you texting? When did you urinate? Where did you urinate? With whom did you urinate outside? Was your phone on silent when your sister called? Do you remember silencing it? Really because on page 53 I’d like to point out that you said it was set to ring.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Brock Turner, Stanford Victim, Sexual Assault
“And then it came time for him to testify. This is where I became revictimized. I want to remind you, the night after it happened he said he never planned to take me back to his dorm. He said he didn’t know why we were behind a dumpster. He got up to leave because he wasn’t feeling well when he was suddenly chased and attacked. Then he learned I could not remember.

So one year later, as predicted, a new dialogue emerged. Brock had a strange new story, almost sounded like a poorly written young adult novel with kissing and dancing and hand holding and lovingly tumbling onto the ground, and most importantly in this new story, there was suddenly consent. One year after the incident, he remembered, oh yeah, by the way she actually said yes, to everything, so.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Brock Turner, Sexual Assault, Stanford Victim
“…if you are confused about whether a girl can consent, see if she can speak an entire sentence. You couldn’t even do that. Just one coherent string of words. If she can’t do that, then no. Don’t touch her, just no. Not maybe, just no. Where was the confusion? This is common sense, human decency.

According to him, the only reason we were on the ground was because I fell down. Note; if a girl falls help her get back up. If she is too drunk to even walk and falls, do not mount her, hump her, take off her underwear, and insert your hand inside her vagina. If a girl falls help her up. If she is wearing a cardigan over her dress don’t take it off so that you can touch her breasts. Maybe she is cold, maybe that’s why she wore the cardigan. If her bare ass and legs are rubbing the pinecones and needles, while the weight of you pushes into her, get off her.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Stanford Victim, Brock Turner, Sexual Assault
“You ran because you said you felt scared. I argue that you were scared because you’d be caught, not because you were scared of two terrifying Swedish grad students. The idea that you thought you were being attacked out of the blue was ludicrous. That it had nothing to do with you being on top my unconscious body. You were caught red handed, with no explanation. When they tackled you why didn’t say, ‘Stop!

Everything’s okay, go ask her, she’s right over there, she’ll tell you.’ I mean you had just asked for my consent, right? I was awake, right? When the policeman arrived and interviewed the evil Swede who tackled you, he was crying so hard he couldn’t speak because of what he’d seen.

Also, if you really did think they were dangerous, you just abandoned a half-naked girl to run and save yourself. No matter which way you frame it, it doesn’t make sense.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Brock Turner, Sexual Assault, Stanford Victim
“At no time did I see that she was not responding. If at any time I thought she was not responding, I would have stopped immediately.’ Here’s the thing; if your plan was to stop only when I was literally unresponsive, then you still do not understand. You didn’t even stop when I was unconscious anyway! Someone else stopped you.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Brock Turner, Sexual Assault, Stanford Victim
“My family had to see pictures of my head strapped to a gurney full of pine needles, of my body in the dirt with my eyes closed, dress hiked up, limbs limp in the dark. And then even after that, my family had to listen to your attorney say, the pictures were after the fact, we can dismiss them.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Brock Turner, Stanford Victim, Sexual Assault
“To listen him attempt to paint of a picture of me, the seductive party animal, as if somehow that would make it so that I had this coming for me. To listen to him say I sounded drunk on the phone because I’m silly and that’s my goofy way of speaking. To point out that in the voicemail, I said I would reward my boyfriend and we all know what I was thinking. I assure you my rewards program is non-transferable, especially to any nameless man that approaches me.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Brock Turner, Sexual Assault, Stanford Victim
“Assault is not an accident. This is not a story of another drunk college hookup with poor decision making.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Brock Turner, Stanford Victim, Sexual Assault
“Alcohol is not an excuse. Is it a factor? Yes. But alcohol was not the one who stripped me, fingered me, had my head dragging against the ground, with me almost fully naked. Having too much to drink was an amateur mistake that I admit to, but it is not criminal.

You were wrong for doing what nobody else was doing, which was pushing your erect dick in your pants against my naked, defenseless body concealed in a dark area, where partygoers could no longer see or protect me, and own my sister could not find me.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Sexual Assault, Stanford Victim, Brock Turner
“You realize, having a drinking problem is different than drinking and then forcefully trying to have sex with someone? Show men how to respect women, not how to drink less.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Sexual Assault, Stanford Victim, Brock Turner
“I want to show people that one night of drinking can ruin two lives. You and me. You are the cause, I am the effect. You have dragged me through this hell with you, dipped me back into that night again and again. You knocked down both our towers, I collapsed at the same time you did. Your damage was concrete; stripped of titles, degrees, enrollment. My damage was internal, unseen, I carry it with me. You took away my worth, my privacy, my energy, my time, my safety, my intimacy, my confidence, my own voice, until today.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Stanford Victim, Sexual Assault, Brock Turner
“I can’t sleep alone at night without having a light on, like a five year old, because I have nightmares of being touched where I cannot wake up, I did this thing where I waited until the sun came up and I felt safe enough to sleep. For three months, I went to bed at six o’clock in the morning.

I used to pride myself on my independence, now I am afraid to go on walks in the evening, to attend social events with drinking among friends where I should be comfortable being. I have become a little barnacle always needing to be at someone’s side, to have my boyfriend standing next to me, sleeping beside me, protecting me. It is embarrassing how feeble I feel, how timidly I move through life, always guarded, ready to defend myself, ready to be angry.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Brock Turner, Stanford Victim, Sexual Assault
“I want to say this. All the crying, the hurting you have imposed on me, I can take it. But when I see my younger sister hurting, when she is unable to keep up in school, when she is deprived of joy, when she is not sleeping, when she is crying so hard on the phone she is barely breathing, telling me over and over she is sorry for leaving me alone that night, sorry sorry sorry, when she feels more guilt than you, then I do not forgive you.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Brock Turner, Stanford Victim, Sexual Assault
“Your life is not over, you have decades of years ahead to rewrite your story. The world is huge, it is so much bigger than Palo Alto and Stanford, and you will make a space for yourself in it where you can be useful and happy. Right now your name is tainted, so I challenge you to make a new name for yourself, to do something so good for the world, it blows everyone away. You have a brain and a voice and a heart. Use them wisely. You possess immense love from your family. That alone can pull you out of anything. Mine has held me up through all of this. Yours will hold you and you will go on.

I believe, that one day, you will understand all of this better. I hope you will become a better more honest person who can properly use this story to prevent another story like this from ever happening again. I fully support your journey to healing, to rebuilding your life, because that is the only way you’ll begin to help others.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Brock Turner, Stanford Victim, Sexual Assault
“The probation officer factored in that the defendant is youthful and has no prior convictions. In my opinion, he is old enough to know what he did was wrong. When you are eighteen in this country you can go to war. When you are nineteen, you are old enough to pay the consequences for attempting to rape someone. He is young, but he is old enough to know better.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Brock Turner, Stanford Victim, Sexual Assault
“…I want to say thank you. To everyone from the intern who made me oatmeal when I woke up at the hospital that morning, to the deputy who waited beside me, to the nurses who calmed me, to the detective who listened to me and never judged me, to my advocates who stood unwaveringly beside me, to my therapist who taught me to find courage in vulnerability, to my boss for being kind and understanding, to my incredible parents who teach me how to turn pain into strength, to my friends who remind me how to be happy, to my boyfriend who is patient and loving, to my unconquerable sister who is the other half of my heart, to Alaleh, my idol, who fought tirelessly and never doubted me. Thank you to everyone involved in the trial for their time and attention. Thank you to girls across the nation that wrote cards to my DA to give to me, so many strangers who cared for me.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Stanford Victim, Sexual Assault, Brock Turner
“…to girls everywhere, I am with you. On nights when you feel alone, I am with you.

When people doubt you or dismiss you, I am with you. I fought everyday for you. So never stop fighting, I believe you. Lighthouses don’t go running all over an island looking for boats to save; they just stand there shining. Although I can’t save every boat, I hope that by speaking today, you absorbed a small amount of light, a small knowing that you can’t be silenced, a small satisfaction that justice was served, a small assurance that we are getting somewhere, and a big, big knowing that you are important, unquestionably, you are untouchable, you are beautiful, you are to be valued, respected, undeniably, every minute of every day, you are powerful and nobody can take that away from you. To girls everywhere, I am with you.”
— Anonymous, Brock Turner sexual assault case: Stanford victim's letter to attacker, judge
Tagged: Brock Turner, Stanford Victim, Sexual Assault