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21 Real Life Heartbreaking Confessions Which Explain The Reality Of Living With Eating Disorders

I want to be happier and the only way to be happier is to be skinny. 
Kirsten Corley
August 27, 2016
“I can't believe I weighed 82 pounds. That's way too fucking much...I am quite possibly a fat cow. Why can't I stop eating? I feel so out of control!!!”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Eating Disorder, Bulimic, eating, Health
“I want to be so skinny that no one can ever say anything to me again about my weight.”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Eating Disorder, Awareness, Health
“I want to be happier and the only way to be happier is to be skinny.”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Eating Disorder, Awareness, eating, Health
“I don't feel the my life is in danger. It's a fight for my sanity more than anything. The eating disorder is making me sick, and I'm ready to give it up, but I have nothing else in my life right now.”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Eating Disorder, Awareness, Health
“I just feel like since I was 10 my eating disorder kept me from life. I would love to be a wedding planner one day.”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Eating Disorder, eating, Health
“I always thought I was fat. It wasn't until recently when I pulled out an old photo album that I was like, Oh my gosh. I really wasn't fat. I've had a distorted view of myself pretty much most of my life.”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Eating Disorder, Health, Fitness
“Between March and December I went from 220 to 120 pounds. After growing up in a household where I was constantly told I need to be a certain weight. When I started to actually see results, I went overboard.”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Food Relationships, Eating Disorder
“I started modeling so I had to be thin...So  I went to the bathroom to throw up just because I wanted to be smaller...Then the owner of the agency took me into her office and said I needed to lose 5lbs in my face.”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Eating Disorder, Learning To Love Yourself
“I told my mom, 'I'm not perfect yet,' she told me the perfect anorexic is dead.”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Eating Disorder, eating disorders, Skinny
“The biggest deception is that they think, if I just lose this weight people would be my friend.”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Relationship With Self, Eating Disorder
“Today I had lunch with my family.”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Eating Disorder, eating disorders, eating, Health
“If I died there would be nothing good to say about me. The only thing I did was change my body.”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Eating Disorder, eating, Health
“This is what I really want. It's the one thing I want so bad. I just want to be thin. If it takes dying to get there, so be it. At least I'll get there.”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Eating Disorder, eating, Health
“The crazy things about eating disorders is that it's so hard to understand unless you have one yourself....People say 'just eat.' I can't.”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Eating Disorder, Awareness, Food Relationships
“Even if you take away eating disorders, being a girl is always going to be one of the hardest things.”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Food Relationships, Eating Disorder, eating
“I want my self esteem back. I deserve a good life. I'm going to be somebody my daughters are proud of.”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Eating Relationship, Food Relationship, Eating Disorder
“I'm scared and lonely. Part of me wants to give up my eating disorder. And then a big part, the strong part doesn't...It's got the best of me. I'm a losing battle. I'm like a slave.”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Food Relationship, Eating Disorder, eating
“If they want me to lose weight, I'll just say, 'No No I'm not going back. F.U.'”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Food Relationship, Eating Disorder, eating
“A personal trainer asked me if I wanted to do a fitness competition and I said yes...One day I binged and said, 'I don't know what to do,' so he told me to throw up. I've been bulimic ever since.”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Food Relationship, Food Relationships, eating
“The day you find something that you want even more than to be thin is the day you're capable of recovery.”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Food Relationship, eating, Eating Disorder
“I believe my eating disorder is going to be with me for the rest of my life. But I've seen people get over the disorder and that's what I hope for myself. I use it as an inspiration every day.”
— Lauren Greenfield, Thin
Tagged: Food Relationship, Eating Disorder