You are not alone. You have never been alone.
Throughout all of your days, you have been loved by God. And even when you’ve chosen to run, even when you’ve relied on yourself and earthly devices rather than His grace, even when you’ve turned your back on His gift and shut that door, still He waits patiently. He waits for you to open it once again, and allow Him inside.
So let Him in. Open. Let His love to fill your heart. Know that no matter what the days bring you, there is a Protector watching over you. Know that in His light, you are found, loved, and whole.